Thursday, June 25, 2009

Balancing Act

What is the balance between depending on God and depending on people? Seems like when I do depend on people, I'm inevitably disappointed because nobody's perfect. I can't really blame them. That's just the way we are. But, I hate being disappointed... so I'd rather not depend on people at all. Maybe it's practice in forgiveness and grace... Ultimately, people cannot provide for my needs in a complete way. They can offer me appetizers for my hunger, little snippets of provision and compansionship, but never wholeness. Is it possible to find my fulfillment and provision completely in God, and at the same time be connected to the body in a way that requires interdependence and cooperation? If so, would I still be disappointed when people fail me? I guess I go back to forgiveness. God never said the interdependence of the body would be perfect. He just said to be that way. But still, the source of the body is Christ. So when that person I'm depending on bails, or cannot meet my need, it's ok because Christ is the one supplying life to the body and ultimately providing for my need. It is not that person alone working alongside me; it is Christ. It is painful when a certain part of the body is injured or does not carry out its function, and I will hurt because of it, but I am not hopeless because Christ is still the head and is directing the body and providing for my needs. (Whether it is in the way I want or not.) The possibility of disappointment does not preclude the mandate to be a part of the body, with all its interdependence and imperfection. I still feel that tension between complete dependence on God and allowing myself to depend on my spiritual family though. Maybe it is depending fully on God, being content in Him and allowing Him to provide for my needs through that family if He chooses, but not relying on that form of provision. I accept their place in my life as a gift but do not rely on it. Ya think? I don't know...