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Fearless Love

I have been paying attention recently to all the things I fear, in decisions, relationships, actions or lack thereof. How much of our lives are motivated out of fear? Why am I afraid? Where does fear come from, and how can we be free from fear?

I had a dream a while back that has really stuck with me. Maybe it was from God. I'm not sure. But one of the things that keeps coming back from that dream is this statement, spoken by a "mediator" between me and another person: "So we are agreed then? You will not make any decisions based on fear, because God is greater than your fears." Ever since then I have been catching myself making (or almost making) decisions based on fear, and that phrase comes back to my mind. If fear were not present in my heart, what would my decision be?

I am a fearful person. Not anxious. Fearful. There is a difference. For me, fear causes me to want to run away. Anxiety usually makes me want to take control, but fear just makes me want to r…

Complex of Grandeur

I'm awake. It's 2AM. I wish I could say it's for a good reason. But it's not. I've been flipping a mental coin for hours, thinking, thinking, thinking. Praying. Evaluating. Worrying. Trusting. Afraid of making the wrong decision. Somehow I think this decision will determine the fate of the world. Ha...  It doesn't. And I wonder what God is thinking. If I could just hop into his mind for a second... Oh, wait... I can... Somewhere I read that I have the mind of Christ. Where does that theology meet my decision? I remember that God is great, and that he is good, gracious and glorious. He is pleased with me. He loves me. I am his child. Christ is in me. I'm accepted. It's not one strike and I'm out. There is grace. I don't have to be perfect. I don't have to know what to do. God knows, and I know through his story that he talks to people. I'll bet he'll talk to me. What must God be thinking? Hmmm... As he looks down on the world, all thi…